of course right after I post some photos a few more just pop up and I'm even more happy with these, though they're all very wonderful.



Photo: H. James Hoff (http://www.hjameshoff.com/)

Hair: Numi Empire (http://www.numiempire.com/ or http://www.modelmayhem.com/830117)

Makeup: Designs by LJ (http://www.designsbylj.net/ or http://www.modelmayhem.com/322)

Clothes: Tatterdemalion Designs (http://tatterdemaliondesigns.com/ or http://www.etsy.com/shop/TatterdemalionDesign)

oh I've also had a headache over an mtv poster/window shadow contest. It was due yesterday by 6pm I made three and thought it was really great until I saw everyone else :( FAIL

senior year of senior year...I've been soo questionary but if this is the major for me but if this is the right career for me. Idk I've been feeling really lost or behind everyone elses skills lately though I know by the ending I'm going to be very happy with the out come its just now I'm not satisfied I still feel like I don't know enough. Either way I'm doing an awesome flash site for Seraphima Designs (w/ a lot of help from bf T_T Idk flash)as well as a catalog and some other crap thats unnecessary, I did branding for a coffee shop called TweaK thats super cute, branding and packages for NOM pasta and my current assignment I current is an ad campagn for Jaw Clips that are actually jaws for an animals (its not real I promise)...I'm almost done making them their pretty bad ass. This weekend I'm taking photos of them on some gorgeous models :D

modeling ha! is such a joke right now its not like I'm not getting gigs its just not getting me anywhere red hair or not...I still miss the purple dearly though. Another thing thats making modeling a joke for me is that the old agency I was with Ugly NY now their The Agency and their basically making a MM but you're charged $10 a month to have a profile...sounds fishy right? Hell I much rather pay for a VIP MM and get ton of space for photos then pay for a profile that doesn't guarantee me gigs. In the year or so I had Ugly I had only one casting call that suited me and I didn't get the gig so this is the angle I'm coming from.

I've had some shoots but heres the ones I have photos back from ^^
Anyway heres some pretty pic shot by H. James Hoff (www.hjameshoff.com)he was sooo refreshing to shot with, extreme professional and just cool as hell. Clothing by the amazing and talented Sally/TatterDemalion Designs (www.tatterdemaliondesigns.com). LJ (www.designsbylj.net) does an extraordinary job on the makeup. Numi (www.numiempire.com) never fails to surprise me what beautiful things she can do with hair plus she was the art directer for the shoot as well.




^_^ yay team!!!

hmm I haven't post anything is a while then again I usually post when I have photos...I have one but I know theres going to me more so I might as well wait. OOOOOOOh and I do have some fun drawings to show but theyz need to be scanned T_T

truthfully I've been mad lazy w/ classes, really because I've stopped caring or it just doesn't interest me. I want to be as excited about a project as I was sophmore year but that's vanished :( BUT at least I've started drawing again! thats one thing I lost sophmore year and haven't done since then... which is really sad since I came to Pratt because I loved drawing.

in other news, Sept 12 was New York Coutures Fashion Show, that I was in :D...but I seriously thought I was being paranoid (just cause in general I always abit obsessive over my weight) that I was the biggest girl there but I was :/ cause they were all agency type model and well maybe if I loss 10-15 pounds I might be too. At least most of it is muscule though ^^ and muscule weighs more than fat anytime. But I'm going to try to loss weight in the hip area (damn sweets and being part german) and work on getting a flat stomache... LOL really don't mind me I seriously OBSESS over something until its solved OR I start obsessing over something else

So I shoot with the awesome Vic of Studio 206 back in March and got 2 f***ing great photo within a few days...but just now I got lots more :D yeahhhhh



Vic actually traveled up to Brooklyn to shoot w/ me so of course I thought it would be a good idea to shoot at Pratt since Vic has never seen the location, my old smelly college :) before. In the photos above, I'm wearing a Lip Service top, along w/ a Timeless Treads vinyl corset and a tutu by MTcoffinz. In the ones below Lip Service top and a skirt I tore up by Tripp, belt (w/ the rings) by Spikes and Leather. Hope you like them ^_^ MU, hair, and styling by me everything else photo, lighting,editing by Studio 206.

So I finally give up alternative modeling cos you know what? its just the same as regular modeling you don't go any where w/o normal colored hair (lame) and no piering, though I will still being keeping them in just not for the shoots. Anyway I'll be going either bleach blond or red in about a week...I would actually liked to be respected as a model for one and get some paid gigs that would be nice.

Oh and I love after my rant about men, I start dating one of my friends ^_^

I can't wait to get back to Brooklyn...Delaware as a whole is just too boring and I feel like I'm wasting my time here except that fact that I love visiting my parents hmm maybe they should just visit me instead :D

(I'll post pretty pics when I'm back in brooklyn, I have tons!)

As promised!



I've been kinda waiting for the rough copy of concept part of the shoot and I finally got my mouse on it yesterday

As I said its a rough for now but you get the idea right? ^_^ Photos and wardrobe by Retinal Fetish(MM#547657)//MAS Voodoo Productions. Styling, hair and makeup's done by me. It was a fun shoot though very late due to Michael Jackson's death (seriously I'm not joking at all about this), late or not it didn't make a difference the photos came out sooo awesome! ...I've just been lazy w/ editing and uploading. Hmmm I might just have to post some more later ;)

Today I'm finally starting my 'project' :D I'll be taking photos of Jane and *hopefully* Eddy and Curse then painting 3 of the choosen images shortly after. What sucks though I totally forgot to get balloons most importantly helium balloons, I don't want them on the ground so it looks like I'm just going to have to draw them in which isn't a biggie at all. So why is my project actually you ask? well its a silly idea Eddy and myself came up w/ first off its a series of the painting w/ a few things in common, the person/model has to be wearing something furry and shiney (not completely just those elements have to be there) and hold balloons, I'm going to be doing most of the styling. The photo would be taken in a studio setting (kinda its my dorm so I'm trying my best) w/ dramatic lighting. From there I obviously take the photo grab a canvas and acrylic paint and go to town ^_^ I love painting I haven't had the time to do anything artsy during the school year so now its my time too. I hate graphic design soo much compared to painting, graphic design is so emotionless and dead I don't even remember why in the beginning of my sophomore year of college I like it so maybe because it was something new I've never tried before? maybe.

OH and something I never thought I would ever think I would say...I'm tired of going clubbing :/ Oh doll, its not that I've grow out of it or anything like that, I still love dancing, dressing up, having a few ok many drinks here and there, the promoters of the parties are still kick ass and all that jazz, its just I'm so tired of these stupid STUPID boys hitting on me. HELLLLLO anyone in your little noggin?! I'm not interested, not even plastered out my face will I ever be interested! Can't we just be friends? instead of you trying to get in my pants, God, I'm just nice to a guy and thats exactually what they think at the clubs. I'm so tired of it :( If I'm not attached to a friends hip it always happens... I can kinda just kinda understand it when I'm gogoing but then the dumbasses have no clue I was ever dancing on stage for more than half the night :uggggggg!: You men, you little boys are all dogs! every last one of you! (except for my friends of course ^_^ you guys are okay) I'm single and very much happy ....the only person I can ever think about dating is a male version of myself, the end.

(I'll post some lovely photos later tonight :D stay tunes!)

ok so I just got this set back from Art-i-fical today *_* I loooove them! and look pasties! wooohooo I thought they were going to fall off the whole time LMAO The pasties were by Vex Clothing (vexclothing.com), the wig was by Crude Things (www.crudethings.com), the shug and cinch is by Artifice Clothing (artificeclothing.com) and the skirt was mine...I got it at Purple Passion :D







So as you may have guessed by the other entries I've basically been taking a break from modeling unless its for something super awesome or pay cos guess what hunnies? I'm very happy w/ my port. ugg I'm still thinking about taking mainstream modeling on just cos that actually PAYS! :/ but then I figured out I'm very bad at trying to be normal cos I'm not, never have been never will be.
In other news I've started a project, ohhh yes an amazing project, that involves me taking photos of my 'models' and then painting it on canvas (I just like to have a pic to draw/paint from^_^) thats been keeping my chin up!

looks like (of course) I didn't get that casting call...damn it I really could have used that money too, fuck I don't even know what else to say

So apparently part of Drew Barrymore's new movie is being filmed at my college. Pratt is turning into Stanfort U! I kinda want a picture w/ her ^_^

You know I use to act in high school i.e. I was part of the drama club. I really liked acting and becoming that character plus I could remember lines very well (surprising since I was such a pothead back in those days). Sadly I was always towering over the guys and I always got understudy (even though I was better than the person that got the role, NO LIE!). W/ always getting understudy I realize its all about who you know (especially if you're related) and how much you suck up. :sigh: all well...

Oh I've been modeling here and there but nothing overwhelming as of yet in fact I feel kinda rusty modeling. I'll post some images soon, I promise. Anyway this weekend that whole last week the week before that and basically since my summer course has ended I've just been drinking alot ^_^ w/ friends of course or I'm painting (YES!) and I've really been missing painting or hell just drawing in general, I missed been 'in the zone' its been sooooooo fuckin long sinc I've been able to do my own work. (I should post images of my work soon too)

...though I haven't been really that lazy in the pasted weeks: travel to Philly: shoot w/ Vic of Studio 206, wisdom tooth removed, visiting my parents and rat, 4th of july (made delicious food and drinks), actually visited two of my friends for HS, work work work, casting call! for Third Earth Designs(cross your fingers for me), shoot w/ Art-i-fical, gogoing at TRASH! (tons of fun) lots of movies watched w/ drinkie drinks and getting my lazy ass to actually paint...it does feel like alot but its definitely not boring at least! except when I'm at work thats very bored but I'm getting paid to be bored so its ok.

I've also come to the point that I know I definitely don't want to be a graphic designer as a career...problem, since I'm studying that and thfough my studies and assignment I've discovered I have absolutely no passion for it and really I'm not a corporate type of person. Sophomore year I had tons of fun w/ the assignments but that aspect as completely disappeared and I find myself at the same I was in three years ago what the hell do I want to do w/ my life?! I've grow to start hating computers since I've been doing work for almost 8hrs staight staring at the screen and personally it does feel right...I miss working w/ my hands more and making things not a silly 2D print out....Modeling is fun that but that brings in barely any money in fact I see it more as a hobby since all the niiiiiiice paying modeling gigs are all for normal boring looking girls. I've had dyed hair since I was 15 and even before then I started tinting my hair cause I find brown hair to be so boring and hell I'm not in anyway a boring person...I tried to take my piercings out, oh and I can have them out for two day and they don't close up a bit but god damn it I'm so attached to them especially my one cheek piercing. I've already been planning my next inking whenever that may be(I need $$$ for that) so I just keep on drifting farther and farther from the quote on quote norm, lookwise and activity wise...I'll continue this rant later. Heres some images to view for now!


Photos by ASTONishing Photography MM# 362958 I worked w/ him last year so its been awhile...but yeah we disagree on photos though...(Lame model bitch rant: I like my face to look angular in photos, cos I actually have cheekbones, I really dislike my face to look round)


photo by Studio 206 MM# 148598 on fuckin South Street! I need a day just to chill there ^_^


photo by Studio 206 taken at Snapm a few months ago, clothes by Berit NY MM# 842309

Which I miss dearly; I was only there a few days but I really wish it was longer, its such a cute town and so close to Canada which I need to travel to...I don't know when my next trip is due to the reality show thing (tell you more if its 100% on for me, if I don't get paid no way in hell 40hrs a week filming theres no way to have a job at the same time :(
Anyway this some links to some of the pics taken for the Lip Service fashion show for the Auxiliary Magazine June release partaaay!

One review if from Auxiliary Mag


and the other of course, from Lip Service



Other then stumbling on to that, I haven't been doing to much besides my day job, summer course (which is finally over today woot!), and hanging out w/ friends ^_^ oh and go-going here and there no actually just at Stimulate for the moment. My upcoming gigs are for TRASH! on the 10th and Stimulate again on the 18th. HOPEFULLY I'll be back to normal for the 10th for TRASH!, I'm getting my bottom two wisdom teeth removed next Tuesday so I'm crossing my fingers and hope that everything goes will. With that being said I'm also going to be out of state next week and half visiting my parents and rat :D

(Note: sorry all the words after the pics are linking >_< I have no idea why its doing that!)

<3

Finally I posted the red latex dress photo by Art-ifi-cal and heres some more by her:



For Timeless Trends corsets

I should have been keeping up w/ blogging, I was soo good w/ it for a while but the end of May was nuts and this beginning of the month, June was even more crazy. :) I hope it keeps that way; I like being busy. I have tons of photos that need aposting but let me first give you a short run through. May 20th was STIMULATE I danced my ass off as well as on the 30th for SMack the Lucky 13 anniversay I was also in the SMack Fashion Show modeling for Babyloves Latex, I still need to find pics from that as well I have in the video projection for the event. OH but a few days before Stimulate I had a shoot w/ Pixal Frames and Rogi.(I still need to pick out photos from that.
Last week was when the craziness begin I modeled for FucktheMainstream.com early on in the week w/ Candylust.org (thank you VF!) Friday even though it was pouring raining I walked my way to the Javitz Center for a shoot and runway show for Sourpuss Clothing,KaoS GRaFFiX took photos. This was for Fangoria Con's X-treme fashion show, which I'm on the flyer for ;)


Saturday I was off to Buffalo w/Machine Sex and JenLee for the Lip Service Fashion Show/Auxiliary Magazine June Release Party @ Club W. which went over well and the follow day I shot w/ Jennifer Links and Luke Copping for Lip Service Clothing after that I almost didn't want to leave Buffalo, but :sigh: I had class and my day job Monday so I couldn't.


Something else fun, I'm in the June issue of Auxiliary Magazine in a 4pg spread:D http://www.auxiliarymagazine.com



I just got make the dvd of images for Julia Gerace soo my next few blogs are almost all going to be images based. Woot woot!
Last thought for now....guys suck, all guys. Fin.

Here's some photos from my shoot with Candylust.org (who's amazing!)

First set for MTcoffinz (mtcoffinz.com) and PanzerKitty (www.myspace.com/panzerkitty)





Second set is for STIMULATE, Spiral Stitching, and PanzerKitty

So apparently my laptops screen has a loss wire so the screen is completely black...ie I'm trying to explain my laziness of not posting anything and as well I reallllllllllllllllly wanted my 3rd blog to have tons of photos but looks like thats not happening as well. OH and I broke my very first bone at the tender age of 20, haha its my ring finger but still typing now takes way longer then it should because of it. haha I'll take a photo of it later it looks pretty bad. Besides that my finals are almost over! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D after the 11th so its extremely soon.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Let me back track whats been going on lately shoot wise. I shoot with Candylust a week or 2 ago (I have some photos back but I want to show them all at once). We shoot 3 sets: 1) Panzer Kitty and MTcoffinz 2)yummy latex for STIMULATE 3)Will's time to shine by making my hair look pretty :); evil queen themed shoot
I shoot with Art-i-fical for another latex shoot...on a slide. Those should be interesting its more of a concept shoot then a product: relating the curses of a slide to the female body.
April's SNAP'M I just went cuz it was Forest's b-day and cake...I was going to be chill time for me but I needed up in the runway show due to a model that flaked (believe me I'm not complaining about this!) I got to wear those amazing outfit by Berit New York :D I was wearing a hop skirt wooohooo! for somereason I <3 hop skirts. I got a few photos back from that too but I'm going to wait for more as well.
Last but not least I shot with Art-i-fical again for product shots for timeless trends corsets. I'm so happy the designer is letting me modeling her stuff, I've been a fan for a while cos the corset's are steel boned, beautifully crafted and inexpensive which is always a plus! The last I have for them is going old...and too big! ;) waist training time.

...is that really it? thats all I can think of for now : / back to finals then